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To old friends [Jan. 28th, 2007|10:51 pm] [Tags | pn ] [ Spirits | okay ] [ Voices | Harvey Danger - Diminishing Returns ] People? We have changed so much. I have too. A lot. Mostly for the better. I don't talk with most of you as much as I should. I feel like maybe I wouldn't even know you, if I did talk to you. Because I knew you so well back then, and that's who I think of when I think of you. And the people who I used to know, who I've lost track of, who I still miss? They wouldn't be the same anymore either. It's useless to want to get back in touch with them. I have to let go. We had good times, back in the day. We were all - you were all - really funny. And I needed you. I was a complete loser and you were my friends. I needed you badly. Maybe I wouldn't be here had I not met you - I certainly wouldn't be the same person. I was reading some of our old chats earlier. They were so silly. Just dumb, pointless, nonsensical stuff. Not really funny on the outside looking in, but I remember how much fun they were. I'm so different. I feel the same: my voice still gets squeaky when I'm over-excited, I still can never get words to sound as elegant as I want them to, I still love listening to music even in languages I don't understand (though nowadays I understand more), I'm still good at acting like I know more than I actually do. But the details are different. I've read more books and forgotten more of their plots. I carry a purse, and have things to put in my wallet. I know a lot more about a great deal many more things, even though I still feel tiny and ignorant and lost all the time. I don't pine unavailingly over an annoying short kid who fills my head with poetry, I'm instead left speechless by a boy, all mine, who lives entirely too far away. I'm less than a year away from leaving home, and I'm not scared at all. Ah...Where was I going with this? Change. I don't deal well with change, when it's about throwing things away or leaving things behind. I'm a packrat. I keep old papers and books and souvenirs and memories in hopes that someday I'll find a new use for them. I hate to lose things and I'm stingy with things that are mine. I half-don't want to see my own old friends move in new circles, I almost wish everything were exactly the same as it was five years ago. Things don't work that way, naturally. But that's good. And I need to come to realise that. Maybe I already have. After all, so much new has come into my life lately that some things have to get pushed aside. I just haven't thought about it much. I am moving on. It's life. I shouldn't be as apprehensive about it as I am. ~Joy Link 2 are in hiding|Go underground

FYI [Jul. 11th, 2006|08:55 pm] [Tags | pn ] Dunno if the word is getting out, but she just texted me - Lu's computer broke GOT HIT BY LIGHTNING!!!. So needless to say she won't be around for a bit. Link 3 are in hiding|Go underground

[Jul. 3rd, 2006|04:09 pm] [Tags | pn ] [ Spirits | pleased ] [ Voices | Rent - What You Own ] FAYEEEEEEEE Thankyou for the postcard! ^_^ Link 2 are in hiding|Go underground

You must reproduce and have little nerd babies! [Jun. 23rd, 2006|12:14 am] [Tags | pn ] [ Spirits | content ] [ Voices | Rooney - If It Were Up To Me ] By the way PNers (specifically Lu, Zi, Omni and Sara) - you're awesome. Just thought you should know. :) We must chat more! Link Go underground

I know, right? [Jun. 22nd, 2006|06:02 pm] [Tags | conversations, language, pn ] 17:59 [MechanicalBird] Joy, I never said "I know right?" before I met you. SUCCESS! I actually think I picked it up from Lu... but I really can't stop saying it. Link 2 are in hiding|Go underground

[Jun. 20th, 2006|01:51 pm] [Tags | personal, pn ] Best wishes to Zippy in her e-relationship which I just learned about because we never talk, girl, wtf! :D Link 5 are in hiding|Go underground

[Jun. 18th, 2006|10:37 am] [Tags | dreams, pn ] [ Spirits | awake ] [ Voices | Weezer - The Good Life ] Faye! I had a dream and you were old. D: I found you sitting in a big meeting of people. Everyone called you Chantal and when I said 'Fayetje!' and hugged you you just sort of smiled wistfully. You didn't look like yourself - you were a little old lady. Reminded me of my elementary school teachers. You also had blonde, greying hair. You were some sort of military strategist and you were trying to explain a maneuver to me. A sneak attack using giant robots... *shrug* But you kept giving me riddles in between. They were French puns and I knew I'd heard them before but I just couldn't remember and I felt bad because you were this old lady whose only link to me anymore were these stupid puns about French. I pretended to get the jokes anyway. There were also badgers, I think. Or maybe toves. They were digging around in rotten logs nearby. Moral to Faye: Don't get old. Ever! I won't let you. Take that as you will. ;P Link 2 are in hiding|Go underground

[Jun. 1st, 2006|05:20 pm] [Tags | conversations, language, pn, writing ] [ Spirits | amused ] [ Voices | Beck - Sissyneck ] I love how our PN chat has degenerated into Spanish. Wolfy Pirate: Demasiadas personas eran como, "ay mi Dios, qué significa 'Ompimec'". Silvery Serebro: XD Slithy Joy: Que significa Wolfy Pirate? Slithy Joy: :-P GrassyKnollPants: xD Wolfy Pirate: Estás bajando, Joyeaux. Slithy Joy: XD I'm the Editor-in-Chief of the Torch next year. There wasn't any vote or anything... Stautberg just kind of appointed me. "Joy, next year you're going to be editor-in-chief, and Tiffany you're going to be the art and design editor." PN Day is hella fun. However, just about all the stuff I had to do for school that I've blown off is due tomorrow. So... I'll be doing some of that. Maybe. Link Go underground

And a happy PN day to you! [Jun. 1st, 2006|03:56 pm] [Tags | happy, life, pn ] [ Spirits | thankful ] [ Voices | Wicked - For Good (I know, corny...) ] Today, PN Day, I raise a glass to all you who call yourselves PNers. ...Say what? It's a story I've told a hundred times before, but I'll write it again now. There are still people who haven't heard, and ought to know. June 1, 2001, five years ago today, some guy named Brad started some website message board called PlanetNeopia. It was a Neopets board, something I was pretty in to at the time. It was a large board, but there was a certain set of 'regulars': Shadoweater, NeoGirlSL, Zippytk182, Lupess32, Cutieco08, ElTimmsio, Joygerhardt, Bananababy, Everclearish, ShanD, Mattharty, Kav, Wynd... There were a bunch. And they hit it off well, and they were crazy together. They had 'party' threads with caramel cannibals and 'oit' and eekie and inside jokes so opaque it was like speaking another language. For four months there was a place we could go to where there was always a party, where there were always laughs and where you could talk about just about anything you wanted. In late September of 2001, the boards went down for no discernable reason. We'd gotten together, mostly thanks to Casey (1000_things on Deadjournal), who had many of our AIM screennames. We gathered in a room called "PN Chat". And for five years, that's how we've been. We've lost some, gained some (Faye!), gotten through crises and celebrations. And I know for a fact that I am the better for it. You guys were my friends when I had none. My counsel when I was conflicted. None of us talk as often as we used to; I recognise this and it pains me. And lord knows I've gotten emotional about you guys (the way I used to write about Shad you'd think he were my ex or something). Because of you, PNers, I am a better person. A happier, more well-adjusted, more interesting and diverse person. We stuck together in that stupid, awkward coming-of-age time and pretty soon we'll be scattered to the four winds in college. But because of what we are I hope we'll stay in contact. So I guess I just want to thank you. Every note of every Weezer song, every tear I've shed at the end of The Amber Spyglass, every time I went on about some stupid linguistic aspect and you listened even though we both knew you didn't care, every stick figure I've ever drawn, every journal entry I write and every instant message I send -- They're all because of you. Every facet of my life, you have touched. Why do I listen to this music, why do I read these books, why do I believe the things I do, why am I in love with someone living across an ocean? Casey Lu Zippy Faye Omni Nanner Shand Kav Ash (Shad Wynd Ari Nepu...), it's your faults. : ) I can't believe you put up with me for so long. Cheers. ~Joygerhardt the Planetneopian Link 3 are in hiding|Go underground

Picture me a balcony... [May. 31st, 2006|04:31 pm] [Tags | pn, politics, quotes ] [ Spirits | chipper ] [ Voices | Porcupine Tree - Blackest Eyes ] "I want a directory of wonderful things... not a directory of left-wing politics." -Jule, Re:Boingboing. Haha oh Jule. He calls me a "flaming lib". :P Gaah, this summer weather. It's not even comfortable to go outside anymore. Which is exactly why I'm going to King's Island again with Jessie and Elyssa on Friday? At least I'll be doing stuff now that school's almost over. Between everything lately I haven't gotten out much. Haven't seen Danielle or Brandon or those guys in months. PN Day is tomorrow! I will definitely stay in 'PN Chat' on AIM for the whole time I am online and I damn well better get some visitors. PNers! We haven't had a chat in, like, FOREVER! Ya shmucks. But I love yas. I'll be writing a nice thoughtful too-long-to-read entry on that soon, by the way. Tonight after midnight or tomorrow sometime. My mood is selected as 'chipper'. Chipper? Chipper was the name of one of our dogs a long time ago. And it reminds me of the Tin Man. I'd be young and chipper, and I'd lock it with a zipper. Or something? I've been reading a lot of my old entries lately (you'll find out why soon), and I absolutely hated it when I skipped around from random thing to random thing. And when I complained about having nothing to write about. And I did both those things a lot. I was also rather emo at times... And a year or two from now, I'll hate reading these entries as well. Life is good right now though. Can't complain. ~Joy Link 5 are in hiding|Go underground

[Feb. 21st, 2006|04:06 am] [Tags | humour, pn ] AHAHAHA LUPEY LUUUU Link 4 are in hiding|Go underground

[Feb. 17th, 2006|05:11 pm] [Tags | pn ] Holy god. Has Omni been alerted about this? http://www.threadless.com/submission/66856/Praying_Mantis,_Your_God. Link 1 is in hiding|Go underground

[Oct. 13th, 2005|04:19 pm] [Tags | humour, pn ] Chantal is a hurricane name in 2007 : ) Link 3 are in hiding|Go underground

[Sep. 25th, 2005|10:15 am] [Tags | dreams, pn ] [ Spirits | determined ] [ Voices | A Perfect Circle - Imagine ] I had a dream that I went to Faye's house and it was the best thing evarr. You lived on a farm and there were a bunch of horses and there were also a whooole bunch of old books and some of them were in Polish. I just drove up on a Saturday and the driving took so long that by the time we drove back I realised I didn't do any of my homework and I didn't have any time to and I ended up failing all of my classes XD Thank you Faye for motivating me to do my homework! ^^ Link 1 is in hiding|Go underground

[Aug. 23rd, 2005|04:24 pm] [Tags | games, happy, pn ] [ Spirits | energetic ] [ Voices | Coheed and Cambria - That one song that I still have because it was the only one I liked and it was on my mp3 player when my harddrive died ] Don't know if this'd be available in your area, Omni, but: $15/mo DSL Omni, Faye and I spent last night playing iSketch. With a Pokemon wordlist. Oh man, it was so fun, but I didn't get to bed until past 3. And then, once in bed, I decided that I'd rather just try to stay up for as long as I could, so then I finally ended up falling asleep at 7am and being woken up at noon. Hum. Going out learning to drive again now! Yay, I think! So long as I don't run into the front of Garden Ridge. Link 1 is in hiding|Go underground

a shadow's worst nightmare [Jul. 21st, 2005|03:34 am] [Tags | pn ] [ Spirits | lonely ] [ Voices | Elvis Presley - You'll Never Walk Alone ] What's Shad been up to lately? Does anyone keep in touch with him? How long's it been, a year? He left around last PN day, I think... It doesn't seem like that long ago though. Hm. Not wishing to stalk, but does anyone know if he has a DJ anymore? Burgunde is deleted. I'd be interested in seeing if he's changed any. This week has been the slowest ever, leaving me lots of time to think and lots of time to do anything but sleep. Perhaps Friday will never really come and I'll be stuck in this temporal lag forever. Went to a ballgame today. We beat the Cubs and talked to a slightly-drunk guy from Chicago that kept lisping, which was interesting. Link 4 are in hiding|Go underground

Weezer and old-school PN and stuff [Jul. 12th, 2005|02:01 am] [Tags | pn ] [ Spirits | amused ] [ Voices | Weezer - Only in Dreams ] Wow. Going through my old text files and found... What's with these newbies dissin PN? Why do they gotta run? What did we ever do to these guys that made them so annoy'un? Hoo-Ha! But you know I'm here! Hoo-Ha! And I know we're friends! ( Hoo-ha! And that's till the world ends! ) Man, how old is this...?! She walks up to you Says "Hi SC." You say "Hey baby, I'm built by Activebuddy." She says "It's a good thing That you're just a robot! (A robot!) That way there's no way I will hurt your pretty feelings Into a thousand pieces!" Dear god. *falls over* And found a bunch of my old poetry and all sorts of fun stuff. What I was looking for was some of my Esperanto translations... I, being the genius I am, moved them all to a special folder on the E drive just before it was all deleted. *smacks head* So, I no longer have the complete lyrics to "La Regxleono". Aww. I think I'm enjoying my latest find better, though. Only in machines You're IMed by teens You have no hands You're just a comp! But when you're down We all have to frown And so it seems Only in machines ~*Joy falls over* PS: Date modified: 6/1/2002. Wooow. First PN day celebration ever! Link Go underground

[Jul. 6th, 2005|03:58 am] [Tags | art, geekery, humour, movies, pn ] Love you Lu! Link Go underground

[Jun. 9th, 2005|03:22 pm] [Tags | life, pn ] AHHHH ARLENE IS COMING Text messages with roadtripping Lu = fun All the Pimsleur Japanese lessons I downloaded are OGGs, and my mp3 player doesn't support 'em... But the conversion software I found is shareware and the trial makes you click a 'continue' button in between each file you convert. Arrrgh. 90 lessons. Link 1 is in hiding|Go underground

[Jun. 1st, 2005|10:45 pm] [Tags | pn ] Love you all, PNers. 4 more years. Link Go underground

Dream and honest-to-god I have weekend plans! [May. 7th, 2005|09:11 am] [Tags | dreams, pn ] [ Spirits | happy ] [ Voices | Garbage - That one new song I just saw on VH1 yay ] Faye you were in my dreeeeem. It was really weird and a continuation of another dream in which me and a small sidekick in glow-in-the-dark dinosaur-shaped inner tube roamed the seas and landed ourselves at the side of a dark sinister-looking castle. We went from there into town, where everyone was celebrating some holiday snuggled in with their families. I assumed it was Christmas, but a lot of the stuff in the town was written with Arabic script. I found a small house that reminded me of a house in Kingdom Hearts and I went in. My mom, my grandma, Faye, and Paula were all there and sitting by a stack of gifts. I went in and sat down like everything was normal. I gave you some cute dolls and you gave me a big book with neat pictures (it might have been a World Records book), with your own commentary pencilled in. Then we went to a musem/zoo sort of place... It was all inside and the lights and all reminded me a lot of my museum, but there were a lot of live animals. We joined a group with some other kids, including people I knew from Gifted like Einstein (Nguyen. The kid. I've told you 'bout him before, right?). So we went around there for a while and there were armadillos and aardvarks and I <3ed them forever. They were fantastic. Then we moved into another room and I just FREEEAKKKED OUT. "YAAAAH! DEAD STUFF!" I cried, and flew (literally-remember, it's a dream) into the next room. There were just cases and cases of mounted animals and skeletons and in real life it wouldn't bother me all that much but here it just scared the living daylights out of me. I went on like this for three more rooms until I came to the end of the exhibit and sat there, panting. The group caught up with me in just a few minutes and explained to me that we had to go through the whole exhibit to answer their questions packet (not unlike the huuge packet we had at the zoo during intersession - god, that thing was the worst). I whimpered. And then I woke up. Woo. Also sometime during the dream (it might have been while I was exploring the town, or before Faye and I went to the zoo), I remember Mom and Grandma taking me to a "Persian festival". It was really neat with lots of interesting knickknacks as well as a lot of Learn Farsi books *grin* Yeah, I really need to start getting into that again. I've emule'd a whole bunch of Farsi resources that I haven't looked at too in-depthly. Today Paula and Dad and I are going to King's Island for a few hours (season passes are so awesome), and then in the afternoon the whole family is going to a new mall. Technically, it's a very old mall and I remember going there when I was teeny tiny. It was called Forest Fair mall, and it had a Ferris Wheel in it and an arcade and everything. It was spiffy keen. However, over the years it went downhill and when I went a few years ago it was completely run-down. They used to have a Disney store, and even it couldn't sell anything because it left in its trail a small toyshop with a familiar raised floor in the back for setting the mountain of stuffed animals on. However, it's "apparently" been completely re-made and now is called Cincinnati Mills. We shall see, we shall see. ~Joy does something during weekend -- public shocked! Link Go underground

Super Furry Animals [Apr. 22nd, 2005|11:42 pm] [Tags | pn ] http://www.superfurry.com/1997hermann.asp Hermann loves Pauline and Pauline loves Hermann they made love and gave birth to a little German Link 2 are in hiding|Go underground

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