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[Mar. 23rd, 2007|10:05 pm] |
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Life:
On one hand, my life is sort of sucking. I've gotten busy, have a ton of homework, have to get to school at 7:15 for the next two weeks (I haven't seen that side of 6:00 AM since last year...), I should be in Costa Rica right about now, I shouldn'tve told my manager that I can work Tuesday and Wednesday nights now because I know he's going to totally overwork me and I'll have no free time anymore, and god does work ever suck, my grades are slipping slowly but steadily and I really just don't care anymore, after all I'm already accepted to college; the AP tests are looming on the horizon closer and closer and closer and I am TOTALLY unprepared for every subject except Art History, only because I love it and retain information and I'm good at guessing on multiple choice questions. I'm hopefully looking at a 4, or *maaaybe* a 5 if I do well on the essays.
On the other hand, life is so amazingly awesome. I have great friends, and I've been making more. I don't even need to say how great Lewis is, and how wonderful he makes me feel. Y'all know. I'm planning the trip of a lifetime in the summer, getting more excited for it by the minute. School is almost over! I'm graduating soon! I'll be 18 soon, and in less than half a year I'll even be leaving home. Disregarding the things like school, and work, and deadlines, I am so lucky to have the things I have.
It's all just a matter of what you hold important, I guess. |
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[Mar. 13th, 2007|03:16 pm] |
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EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! |
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| I want to go home now. |
[Mar. 11th, 2007|07:53 pm] |
Someday I will think up the plans for a functioning teleportation device through sheer force of will.
Driving sucks. |
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| In reaction to Zippy's post. |
[Feb. 20th, 2007|11:36 pm] |
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| |  pensive | ] |
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| | The Decemberists - Yankee Bayonet (I Will Be Home Then) | ] |
Kerr-rist I ended up writing a lot. It's all pretty rambling too because I don't feel like editing or organising it better.
Here's a response for you Zippy, with my thoughts provoked by your recent entry.
( On fear of death )
Coulda spent the time I took writing that, to revise my research paper. Or do any one of half a dozen other things I should be doing. But, I had more fun writing this.
~Joy |
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[Nov. 21st, 2006|10:57 pm] |
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| | Jekyll & Hyde - Facade | ] |
"I had an image of you in my head earlier. I thought about how a mexican version of Joy would go "Ole!!!!" all the time rather than "YAY!!!" It made me laugh."
Going to Nyack was fun. School is killer. Thanksgiving will be boring.
The further the year goes on, the less I care about AP Calculus. Or journalism, for that matter. I've completely blown it off. It's not a class, so I won't bother to write anything for it. We're two months late with our first issue, I'm supposed to write three stories but I haven't written anything. Worst editor-in-chief ever.
Whatever though. Nyack was fun.
Went with Danielle, and Joshua. Joshua I met once before but I didn't really remember him.
Huge goddamn nerd, by the way. He made a ton of references to a ton of things, many of which I got. And he likes Jonathan Coulton. People are not supposed to be like that in real life!
So yeah. We saw TMBG. Twice in one day; the kids' show in the afternoon and the 16+ show at night. Yay.
So we went with Danielle's boyfriend Mike, who has seen...something like... 130 TMBG shows? He has their signatures tattooed on his ankles. He is internet-famous and arguably Their biggest fan.
It was a little weird. He'd tell me what the next song was just by the start of the band's introduction speech to it.
We didn't go into the city at all, and even if we had planned to there wasn't any time for it. Ah well.
It was fun. Met some interesting people. Listened to some good music, not only from the concert but from Danielle's and Josh's extensive CD collections. Became a better driver. Got tired and giggly and cursed like a sailor. Lost a lot of sleep, which I'm still trying to make up for. Lost a lot of hours at work and a lot of spare time.
I'm glad to be home. All in all though, I'm glad I did it too. It was fun.
I probably have some photos on my camera, but they likely didn't turn out. I'll be pleasantly surprised if any of them did.
Tired now. Don't have anything else to write about. Going to bed.
~Joy |
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[Nov. 17th, 2006|03:06 pm] |
Gone for the weekend.
Not that it makes a huge difference (especially with my current frequency of updating), but just if anyone wonders why I'm not around.
Going to Nyack, NY with Danielle. TMBG concert. Long, long, long drive. It should be fun if not wholly exhausting.
I've already promised my friends not to get shot, or raped, or get the car wrecked. So long as I keep my promise, I reckon it'll be a good time.
Bye then. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2006|10:19 pm] |
Is there any greater punishment, to one who's been taking sign for 5 weeks, than to send them to a silent dinner?
Oh, but it was fun. One of the girls from my class showed up, thank goodness, and then a guy who takes Intermediate ASL who used to have our teacher, who introduced us to some people.
This guy we were talking with was getting so frustrated with us. Heh. It pretty much came down to him fingerspelling individual words, it was horrible. Most people were pretty patient though.
There's such a difference in the signing I saw tonight from what I usually see. I always see hearing-to-hearing, teacher-to-student or student-to-teacher. Even between two people who know the language, a deaf person and an interpreter, it's different from what was going on tonight. Watching two people talk in their common native language, so fast and fluid it's all a blur.
I have a feeling that ASL class is going to be somewhat irritating after this. Like when I started reading stuff and listening to music in Spanish, and the summary grammar lessons didn't mean much to me anymore. After experiencing the 'real' language, classroom stuff becomes a bore.
Buuut enough of that depressing stuff. I'm going to watch some more vblogs.
Oh, one more thing: you know what's funny? When I'm looking through signing vblogs, and I watch one and it's in BSL or Auslan or something and I don't notice it at first. "Whaaaat? They're moving their hands, but they're not saying anything!" |
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| When things are normal, I complain of monotony. Yet when things like this happen, I long for normalcy. |
[Oct. 12th, 2006|10:09 pm] |
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| | Radiohead - Airbag | ] |
I am shaken.
My purse smells like gasoline and my glasses don't fit right anymore and for the time being I have no car. I just got back from ASL class and on the whole everything would seem normal but the little details are just not right.
My high school parking pass is sitting on the desk. It should be hanging from my mirror, in my car, but the car was towed away hours ago.
I was driving down the road. He came from a side road, so I was told, but the way I saw it I was driving and then he was diagonal in front of me, turning onto to the road far too late. I was slamming on the brakes but I felt an impact anyway. Airbags flew open.
This shouldn't be happening.
I was terrified out of my mind. It wasn't my fault, it wasn't even something I could blame on the fact that I was a new driver and inexperienced and whatever. It happened anyway.
It was a huge ordeal, getting my parents over and talking to the police and the other guy and all that. And, an hour late, I went to class anyway. It felt good to be doing something normal.
But people are going to hear about it, and ask about it, and say the same things I'll hear from every other person about it, and it'll keep being brought up over and over again.
But yes, of course, thank goodness that everyone's okay. If ever I had that feeling of 'teenage immortality' that everyone talks about, it's gone from me now.
Now, I just want to return to normal. I want to change out of these clothes and lose the lingering smell of gasoline. The rest of the world is going on with or without me. If I blink, I'll miss it.
~Joy |
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| Things never do work out. |
[Oct. 10th, 2006|12:19 pm] |
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Um.
The Costa Rica trip was canceled.
And the teacher organizing it has lymphoma (caught it in the early stages, so he should be okay, or so I'm told).
It was apparently canceled last week and no one told me. No emails, no announcements, no nothing. We already paid some $300 as a deposit, I don't know what's going to happen with that. With any luck we'll get it back, but who knows.
So now some things have changed. Not all of it bad, I guess. I'm still really disappointed. Now:
-I can save my money for other things
-I can get the rest of my PE credit in the springtime, instead of having to take a whole semester of PE
-I won't have to deal with taking off work for a week/making up college stuff
-I...uh...won't have to get a passport? It's getting tougher to find the bright side of this the more I think about it.
Meh. This is what happens. Things seem to be going really well and you get yourself all psyched up about it, and then it just gets knocked down. |
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| ayyy es tan preciosa :3 |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|04:13 pm] |
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| | Super Furry Animals - Y Teimlad | ] |
Eeeee. :D
I just got back from my old elementary school with another girl in NHS. We had to help this cute little girl named Yesica (Yésica? Yessica? However it's supposed to be spelled).
She's from Honduras and speaks virtually no English. She's also kind of quiet or shy (at least to me), which is a problem.
But she was really adorable and I enjoyed coaxing what words I could out of her. She probably knows more than she lets on, but she's also probably pretty scared. Just a few weeks in a new country, away from all her family, everyone speaking a strange language and no one who can understand her? Poor thing.
She can read and write at least a little bit. I told her dibuja una casa for me, but instead of drawing a house she wrote out 'casa'. She could also name the letters (in Spanish). She knows the English numbers 1-10 but she doesn't know any colours. I wonder if she knows shapes. I guess I'll find out next week.
Little kids mumble when they talk. It was impossible to understand her sometimes.
It was fun though. :3
~Joy should talk to the guys in the kitchen at work some time, maybe. One of the guys who washes the dishes has a crush on Jessie. XD |
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| No meaning save what we choose to impose. |
[Sep. 8th, 2006|04:21 pm] |
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| | The Decemberists - The Crane Wife 1 And 2 | ] |
"Things happen for a reason."
I'm tired of hearing people say that. Things happen. That's it. People usually say it when bad things are happening: "It's the only thing that keeps me going, knowing that there's a reason for everything."
There is no grand reason for every occurance. Why should there be? Even if you believe there's a god, why would he concern himself with your own meaningless affairs?
The universe doesn't care that your dog died, or you lost your job, or whatever problems you encounter. Not to sound cold, because it obviously affects you and all the people you come into contact with. But things like that don't happen to punish you, or test you, or because it puts the pieces into place for something important happening. There's no end goal.
Things just happen, and you can't change that. Instead of moping about it or pretending you have no say in your fate, you can do something about the future, and improve your own situation.
That's how I see it.
~Joy |
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| Traveling! |
[Sep. 5th, 2006|04:25 pm] |
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| | Arcade Fire - Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels) | ] |
Hahahahaha. I just picked up the phone. It was my dad, and he thought I was Paula because I usually answer the phone with "Aló."
There is stuff going on in the foreseeable future! Kinda big stuff! Stuff that makes me glad I'm going to be working to get money!
A weekend in the middle of November, Danielle and Trey are going up to Nyack, NY for a TMBG show. I have no idea if I'd be allowed to join them or not -- I haven't exactly done anything like that before, y'know? It would be fun. It would also be a long-ass car ride.
Curless was talking today about our Art History class might take a trip to Chicago in the spring! Yes! It'd be 3 or 4 days, and only cost about $200 too (that's about half of what the NHS trip in April cost). I don't know what all we'd be doing there, other than the Art Institute which I love and Jessie and I were late to the bus last time trying to see everything we wanted to see and it would be great to go back. I cannot articulate how much I love that city.
And of course there is Costa Rica, which por eso estoy muy emocionada. Even though I get sunburned just thinking about it.
Today is a rare empty evening which I plan on taking full advantage of by doing not much of anything. I don't have any homework (I would work ahead on Art History but even Curless doesn't have the stuff written up yet) and I did have a volunteering thing for NHS scheduled today, but it got cancelled because no one else could go.
So tomorrow I have choir, Thursday and Friday I have work, Saturday both Jessie and I are off work so we're probably going to do something, Sunday I have work in the afternoon.
I am really, really glad I got that planner I was talking about to write all this stuff down in.
~Joy, whose life was so boring last year, who suddenly has all this stuff, what happened between then and now?
PS: I saw a Darwin fish on a car the other day. :3 |
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[Aug. 19th, 2006|09:55 am] |
Hay guys guess what!
I can legally drive now. :3 |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|12:26 pm] |
I am jubliant!
I failed the stupid test, but I passed the maneuverability part!
If I never see another traffic cone in my life, it'll be too soon!
No more pseudo-parallel-parking for me. :D Next Saturday I retake the driving part and I'm almost positive I'm going to pass. Of course I said that the first time I tried taking the test, and I choked. I was nervous this time too, but the examiner was a lot nicer and really patient.
Aaaaanyway.... NO MORE MANEUVERABILITY! If I had passed it, failed the driving, and then had to do maneuverability again next week, I would have been so angry. But as it is, I'm quite pleased. ^_^
~Joy: YAAAAAAY! |
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| Joy using the journal as a personal planner |
[Aug. 8th, 2006|04:26 pm] |
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| | The Decemberists - A Cautionary Song | ] |
For those of you keeping score:
-Rocky has been moved to two weeks from now due to lack of my family telling me about anything that's going on
-Got a call from UC Clermont today. Classes are scheduling hell. Here's the deal: I signed up for a computer class 'Intro to Sim and Gaming', a history class 'WWI and the Homefront' and an 'Intro to Sociology' class.
The computer class has a corequisite IT course that conflicts with the History class. So, I have to decide between them. :[
If I choose the Sim and Gaming course, that means I'll be taking three classes a week instead of two, and I'll have to reschedule the Sociology one. Sooo I'm leaning more towards history at the moment. Input from anyone?
-For those of you who haven't caught me online the past few days (because if you did, I've no doubt already told you about it), I've been playing Pokemon Emerald via emulator. I'm on my third badge so far and I've got a Skitty who is a devious little bugger. :D He's very fun to use in double battles because he'll attract the other pokemon and/or put it to sleep, and then Geodude/Linoone/Lombre can beat the crap out of them. =D
Yaaay Skitty!
Oh, and I read 20-some pages of Crime and Punishment last night. I was semi-proud of myself.
500 more to go...
~Joy does not want summer to end, darnitall D:
PS: Ummm I should probably change out of my pajamas now |
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| jigga what? |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|05:13 pm] |
[Joyuna] What are you doing all over Europe, Mattie?
[Matt] Cursing cruel fate.
[Joyuna] ...
[Joyuna] Just let ya know I am unspeakably jealous of you
[Matt] Why? You want to be with your parents for two weeks with nobody to talk to and no way to escape them?
[Joyuna] I want to be in England, dammit!
[Matt] I want to be home, damnit!
[Virgie] Yeah me too
[Joyuna] Let's switch
[Virgie] England I mean
[Matt] No, you live in Montana or something.
[Matt] I was in France up until two days ago.
[Joyuna] ...me? I live in Ohio
[Matt] Same thing, Joy.
[Joyuna] ...k |
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| Voy a Costa Rica en la primavera! |
[Jul. 22nd, 2006|07:43 pm] |
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| | Ska-P - El Vals Del Obrero | ] |
Weeeell, it's official:
Next spring, I'm going to Costa Rica!
It's a school trip, 8 or 9 days homestay at a Costa Rican family's home where the primary language will be Spanish. I'm not exactly clear what the purpose of the trip is - it'll either be something about Spanish culture or something about science and biodiversity and whatnot, most likely.
Either way it's going to be pretty awesome.
And the first time I've left the country, dammit! I must travel more. Heh.
~Joy |
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[Jul. 17th, 2006|11:44 am] |
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Haha what! :]
I'm very happy for you Joy! Do you have a picture of Lewis?
Wishing you Rainbows, Laughter, Happiness, Peace, and Abundance always.
With Love and Light,
Mom
(...that's an interesting signature there o.0)
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He's cute. Looks like he has a funny personality.
Wishing you Rainbows, Laughter, Happiness, Peace, and Abundance always.
With Love and Light,
Mom
XD
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And Dad just got home for lunch. He said he's fine with it, and not to send him n00d pixx0rz k?! He also suggested that I not let it stop me from dating guys around here... -_-; I don't think he quite understands.
Really, their reactions were reversed from what I anticipated. I expected Dad to take me more seriously, and Mom to either blow it off completely or just think it's a phase. Granted I haven't had a chance to talk to Mom in the flesh yet.
Well, the important thing is that's done with. I can stop worrying about whether they'd be okay with it, and start getting irritated at their patronizing reactions.
You should have seen him walk in. "Lewis, huh? Heheh." The way he said it, arrrrgh.
But I do feel better. I think. |
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| On taking risks |
[Jul. 17th, 2006|09:41 am] |
Soooo I sent my parents the email, explaining to them about Lewis.
And I kind of want to curl up in a ball right now and hide. I really have no idea what their reaction will be.
With luck, my dad will read it at work and my mom won't see it at all, and Dad will explain it to her instead. Hah.
So, the upside of this? Uhm... not having to just refer to him as "he" on the phone? More lectures concerning internet pedophiles? A weight being lifted off my shoulders? I dunno, not really. I guess I feel a little better.
I still want to hide. |
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| Ikasucon -- I have no idea what 'ikasu' means |
[Jul. 15th, 2006|12:09 am] |
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| | Dido - Closer | ] |
Elyssa took Jessie and me to another anime convention today. Hahahah... and believe you me I was so not expecting to spend 12+ hours there...
It was fun though. Photos are here.
I said it after Sugoicon and I'll say it again now: One doesn't need to be an anime fan to enjoy an anime convention. The people are all so ridiculously nice and lots of hugs are involved. We even got some sort of lesson on glomping.
Things I have seen today:
Lots of guys in drag. Even more girls in drag. A woman in armor made out of boxes of pocky, with another person behind her making clip-clop noises coconut-style with two more pocky boxes. A man who goes by the name of 'Doctor Bearsex'. Zoidberg Cloud. Lots of other weird shit.
What I took home with me: A box of PINEAPPLE POCKY!!!!!, and a Maromi plushie that's all soft and squishy that makes me giggle and squee and behave in a way generally uncharacteristic of my normal self.
Adorable little evil puppydog... <3
Near the end of the night we all ended up splitting up - I went to a panel on anime and manga translation. There were only five other people there, and they were all pretty quiet... I found it interesting though. The woman running the panel spoke Japanese, Thai, Mandarin, and some Vietnamese and Korean. This would be something for me to aspire to, teehee.
Translation really seems like something I could do with my life - it is, after all, a combination of language and writing. Interpreting on the fly for a person would freak me out, but translating a novel or a movie? That would be really neat, I think.
So all in all, today was cool. Saw lots of weird and/or neat stuff, met lots of interesting people (including a lot of Doug's friends, who I met when seeing Pirates of the Caribbean! Sure didn't expect to run into them, but we did), and even learned some stuff. But right now I am tired and I have a bit of a headache so it is time for me to hit the sack.
~Joy had no idea there were so many types of pocky... |
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| You put my mind through college |
[Jul. 5th, 2006|01:29 am] |
I had a great night!
A little after 7, Danielle called me up (rather, Brandon called on Danielle's phone) and said they were near my house, could they come over and hang out. This is odd because Brandon and Danielle live a pretty good distance away from me, and don't hang out with people in my subdivision that I'm aware.
So, it being Tuesday night and a holiday I was expecting a quiet boring evening, maybe turning in early because I really had nothing better to do.
Fast forward to sitting in Erin's car driving to Kentucky, all of us singing along to Birdhouse in Your Soul.
:D
I love people sometimes.
I also love my dad for letting me completely spur of the moment go to some guy I'd just met's grandmother's house (Brian is Danielle's friend, whose grandmother lives near me *apparently*), and then not minding me calling him up and asking if I could go down to Kentucky for the evening, and not be back home until past midnight.
They probably think I'm out drinking or something... Well, my mom probably does because that's what she used to do as a teenager.
Anyway, tonight was a blast. Must do it again sometime. We watched American Beauty and saw lots of fireworks. Feeling pretty worn out now though.
~Joy will be sleeping in tomorrow morning... even more than usual |
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| Thought I was done with all these silly tests... |
[Jun. 24th, 2006|05:09 pm] |
| [ | Spirits |
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| [ | Voices |
| | Modest Mouse - I've Got It All (Most) | ] |
Aaaand it's time to stop slacking and actually get something done for the summer.
Thursday I take placement exams at UC Clermont for post-secondary. Oh joy. English and Math, even though I'm probably not going to take anything math-related. I can't make any concrete decisions until I get my high school schedule, but for the first quarter I want to take French. There's also some kind of 'Languages of the world' anthropology course that looks interesting. We'll see.
Taking my driving test in a couple weeks. It would probably be wise of me to learn how to park before then.
Next time I'm at the library I'm picking up a job application. I figure, working in retail would drive me insane, working in fast food would gross me out, so I might as well put my alphabetization skills to use. Seriously, the job description is as follows:
"Shelve books, magazines and other library materials for public and non-public areas of library"
So that's how things are, life-wise, for now. Pretty good.
~Things are working out well for Joy |
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